June ...
It is June again ...It is the month that change my life .
It is the month that change my view of many things .
It is the month that bring me to Lord .
It is the month that I know I am surrounded by loving and caring people .
It is the month that I know more about Love .
It is the month that I get to know wealth means nothing without health .
It is the month that I fully agree , what's matter most is how we live our life and not how long we live .
It is the month that I know how fortunate I am to have Chris ( my wife ), she's been so supportive and keep walking with me without looking back .
It is the month that I know that it is so great to have Natalie ( my daughter ), she bring joy to me.
It is the month ...
It is the month ...
It is the month that I know what is CANCER ?
I love June , because it change my life.
I love June , because it is the month I am looking forward every year .
I love June , because every June I live thro' , means Lord have answer my prayer and Lord is so graceful .
I love June , because June means celebration .
I pray that Lord will bless me and continue to heal me, and I look forward to be here to tell you in coming years , " It is JUNE again "
God Bless
SK
Monday, June 21, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
What is 'C" - cancer to us ...
'C' bring fear n worry to many of us
'C' means disastrous to many of us
'C' cause mental torture and physical suffer to many of us and
'C' always link to death for many of us ...
This is what many of us think of it, when someone mention 'C'
Time to change on what we used to think of 'C' .
Time to change on what we used to do.
Time to tell ourself that
'C' bring us back to healthy diet , healthy living .
'C' means caring.
Because of 'C', we receive all the caring message and it confirm that the world is still full of caring and loving people and it is care with sincere loving heart.
'C' cause us to value life and everything we have , more than what we did before.
Someone wrote" The value of a good Lung is measured after losing it ",
I would say " Value our lung and life, we should not wait till the 'C' to tell us how to value it "
'C' link to Alarm , not death. It is the alarm telling us , there is something wrong with our body, which may cause by stress ; environment polution ; our diet ; our lifestyle and the usual wear & tear after years or by many other possible unknown reason. The only set back is that, most of the time , this alarm come too late and give us too short of time to get things organise for the repairing work.But, on the other hand, we should be grateful that atleast the alarm still working and we've been given a chance to get it repair.So, let's not link it to death and just start repair it with the time we have.
To all the cancer warrior ,
- Let's not give up
- Let's not fear n worry weight us down, let's unload it from our back
- Let's continue to go forward with the repair work
- Let's continue to open our hand and our heart to receive love and support from our Lord , our family, our friends and live our days with joyful and happy mood during this long journey
- Let's value the chance that we've been given to carry out the repair .
- Let's be grateful that our alarm's still working and we been given chance/time to do something.
- Let's be thankful . There's many other sickness take life away from our love one without chance to say Good Bye. But, we been given a chance to get it repair .
And l am thankful to Lord . It is by his grace and mercy that I am still living happily and be able to share with you.
Just remember that we are not alone going thro' this long journey, we are together supporting each other and with the mercy of Lord , we will walk out from the darkness to light.
Today is a joyful day and with Lord everyday will be .
The grace of the Lord Jesus be with you.
God Bless
SK
'C' means disastrous to many of us
'C' cause mental torture and physical suffer to many of us and
'C' always link to death for many of us ...
This is what many of us think of it, when someone mention 'C'
Time to change on what we used to think of 'C' .
Time to change on what we used to do.
Time to tell ourself that
'C' bring us back to healthy diet , healthy living .
'C' means caring.
Because of 'C', we receive all the caring message and it confirm that the world is still full of caring and loving people and it is care with sincere loving heart.
'C' cause us to value life and everything we have , more than what we did before.
Someone wrote" The value of a good Lung is measured after losing it ",
I would say " Value our lung and life, we should not wait till the 'C' to tell us how to value it "
'C' link to Alarm , not death. It is the alarm telling us , there is something wrong with our body, which may cause by stress ; environment polution ; our diet ; our lifestyle and the usual wear & tear after years or by many other possible unknown reason. The only set back is that, most of the time , this alarm come too late and give us too short of time to get things organise for the repairing work.But, on the other hand, we should be grateful that atleast the alarm still working and we've been given a chance to get it repair.So, let's not link it to death and just start repair it with the time we have.
To all the cancer warrior ,
- Let's not give up
- Let's not fear n worry weight us down, let's unload it from our back
- Let's continue to go forward with the repair work
- Let's continue to open our hand and our heart to receive love and support from our Lord , our family, our friends and live our days with joyful and happy mood during this long journey
- Let's value the chance that we've been given to carry out the repair .
- Let's be grateful that our alarm's still working and we been given chance/time to do something.
- Let's be thankful . There's many other sickness take life away from our love one without chance to say Good Bye. But, we been given a chance to get it repair .
And l am thankful to Lord . It is by his grace and mercy that I am still living happily and be able to share with you.
Just remember that we are not alone going thro' this long journey, we are together supporting each other and with the mercy of Lord , we will walk out from the darkness to light.
Today is a joyful day and with Lord everyday will be .
The grace of the Lord Jesus be with you.
God Bless
SK
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Keep going with faith ...
Feel kind of depress with news of friend's family member been diagnosed with cancer ; recurrence of cancer ; metastasis of cancer ; lossing the battle, all within a month .
And I am so thankful to Lord . It is His mercy and grace that keep me doing well and strong .
Feel great when Lord give me some good news to cheer me up ( after all the negative news ) with the result of my CEA blood test reading. The reading reported reduce of 43 points from 1443 to 1400. It is still high or so call very high , but, to be able to keep it stable without treatment, it is amazing . Praise the Lord.
And I am so thankful to Lord . It is His mercy and grace that keep me doing well and strong .
Feel great when Lord give me some good news to cheer me up ( after all the negative news ) with the result of my CEA blood test reading. The reading reported reduce of 43 points from 1443 to 1400. It is still high or so call very high , but, to be able to keep it stable without treatment, it is amazing . Praise the Lord.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Feel Great
My posting in Cancer Compass :-
1st April 2010 :- ( http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,45526,0.htm )
Sleeping in hospital bed and wake up at 2 a.m. and can't sleep again is no fun .
Thanks to all your posting here to give me strenght .
Feel great now and looking forward to a good scanning in the morning .
Anyway, I hate the fasting , As I can't eat for until about 11 am with the schedule CT for lung on 9 am and brain MRI 10.30 am .
Looking forward to the good result by noon today .
2nd April 2010 :- (http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,45555,0.htm )
Finally I get my CT and MRI scan all settle by late morning yesterday and can happily enjoy my breakfast after a long fasting.
But, the long wait for hours waiting for the report make me feel tire and boring.
At last the report was out , 5 1/2 months after the last chemo, the CT lung show stable , no major changes to the size and quantity of tumor ( it is just like all the past report since '08 )
With the advice from oncologist, I decided to take brain MRI and CT scan for neck + abdomen to confirm whether any sign of metastasis, since my CEA reading ( as per blood test 3 days ago ) show going up to new level of 1400+ .
Great result, scanning show no sign of any metastasis .
Praise the Lord for his healing , blessing and always answering our prayer .
Thanks all of you for all great encouraging message posting , it keep me be positive .
And have to thanks my loving and caring wife, who take care of me with love and great support. For many people, they will wonder why am I so happy, when there is no improvement after 22 months of treatment .
But, for me, it is a good news when the condition is under control ; I can eat well , sleep well , moving around freely , travel , enjoy my family life ( which I hv missed so much for the past with crazy working life ) and I feel good everyday.
Have learn to live with cancer in my lung and I know one day it will disappear, as the 'C' will find that it is no fun staying around when this guy have so much of support and have no fear & worry about lossing life to cancer.
I pray and wish all of us here will get well soon with the blessing & healing from Lord Jesus and the support to each other and continue to figth the 'C' without fear and worry .
It is a happy and joyful day and with Lord everyday will be .
God Bless
SK
1st April 2010 :- ( http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,45526,0.htm )
Sleeping in hospital bed and wake up at 2 a.m. and can't sleep again is no fun .
Thanks to all your posting here to give me strenght .
Feel great now and looking forward to a good scanning in the morning .
Anyway, I hate the fasting , As I can't eat for until about 11 am with the schedule CT for lung on 9 am and brain MRI 10.30 am .
Looking forward to the good result by noon today .
2nd April 2010 :- (http://www.cancercompass.com/message-board/message/all,45555,0.htm )
Finally I get my CT and MRI scan all settle by late morning yesterday and can happily enjoy my breakfast after a long fasting.
But, the long wait for hours waiting for the report make me feel tire and boring.
At last the report was out , 5 1/2 months after the last chemo, the CT lung show stable , no major changes to the size and quantity of tumor ( it is just like all the past report since '08 )
With the advice from oncologist, I decided to take brain MRI and CT scan for neck + abdomen to confirm whether any sign of metastasis, since my CEA reading ( as per blood test 3 days ago ) show going up to new level of 1400+ .
Great result, scanning show no sign of any metastasis .
Praise the Lord for his healing , blessing and always answering our prayer .
Thanks all of you for all great encouraging message posting , it keep me be positive .
And have to thanks my loving and caring wife, who take care of me with love and great support. For many people, they will wonder why am I so happy, when there is no improvement after 22 months of treatment .
But, for me, it is a good news when the condition is under control ; I can eat well , sleep well , moving around freely , travel , enjoy my family life ( which I hv missed so much for the past with crazy working life ) and I feel good everyday.
Have learn to live with cancer in my lung and I know one day it will disappear, as the 'C' will find that it is no fun staying around when this guy have so much of support and have no fear & worry about lossing life to cancer.
I pray and wish all of us here will get well soon with the blessing & healing from Lord Jesus and the support to each other and continue to figth the 'C' without fear and worry .
It is a happy and joyful day and with Lord everyday will be .
God Bless
SK
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Will too much reading cause worry !
My answer is " YES "
Most of us will start doing our reseach thro' reading and net browsing when diagnose
with cancer .
I start with the following site recommended by oncologist :-
http://www.cancer.gov/
http://www.cancer.net/
It give me a very good overview about cancer with general information like ;-
What is cancer ; Treatment ; Coping with cancer ; Prevention, Genetics, Causes ;
Screening and testing.
It also give me overview of all type of common cancer , for Lung cancer, the site
provide very details informations as follows :-
The Lungs - an overview of lungs ; Cancer cells - How's cancer begins in cells ;
Risk factors ; Screening ; Symptoms ; Diagnosis ; Staging ; Treatment ; Second opinion ;
Comfort care ; Nutrition and so on .
Thereafter, I start browsing to look for sites in Malaysia and I manage to find the following
> National Cancer Society of Malaysia ( http://www.cancer.org.my/ )
> Cancerlink Foundation ( http://www.cancerlinkfoundation.org/ )
> Makna <> ( http://www.makna.org.my/ )
> Malaysian Oncological Society ( http://www.malaysiaoncology.org/ )
And other sites that I used to get update informations as follows :-
> Nasional Cancer Centre Singapore ( http://www.nccs.com.sg/ )
> American Cancer Society USA ( http://cencer.org/ )
As for information of Chemo drug and the side effect , I log in to :-
http://www.2ndcanceropinionusa.com/drugdb.htm
Those are all the official site for cancer treatment or cancer care and it give us good information
about standard treatment or approved treatment by government and also all the approved or recommended
complimentary treatment .
After I start with Chemo Therapy and have so much of time at home resting and to cope with side effect,
I start do more reseach by reading books ; articles ; web sites , about story of cancer survivor ; about alternative treatment ;
about why we should not accept the standard treatment like surgery , radiation therapy, chemo therapy ; about there is no
cure for cancer, all treatment is just to prolong life for couple of months or the target of 5 years ; about changing our diet and
mindset to improve our immune system to regain our health and we will be fully recover ; about how to live with cancer in a peaceful
way and so on ...
Be frank, as a layman in medical field, I am getting confuse and wondering what is the right decision .
How to overcome it ?
When I am confuse, I pray to Lord and ask for wisdom ; knowledge and to guide me for the right tretament decision.
With wisdom from Lord and his guide, I find Cancer Compass ( http://www.cancercompass.com/ ) , it give me a better view
after reading all the posting from patient and care taker in cancer compass community and the sharing ; support from the community
is a great assistance to me and clear most of my doubts .
My opinion to share after reading all the informations about cancer treatment as follows :-
> Tell our self that Cancer is not a disease, it is our cell and it can be repaired if we give ourself a chance to do so.
> Tell ourself that cancer is not the end of our life, it is an alarm to inform us there is abnormal cell in our body system
( Cancer begins in cells, the building blocks that make up tissues. Tissues make up the organs of the body.
Normal, healthy cells grow and divide to form new cells as the body needs them.
When normal cells grow old or become damaged, they die, and new cells take their place.
Sometimes, this orderly process goes wrong. New cells form when the body does not need them,
and old or damaged cells do not die as they should. The build-up of extra cells often forms a mass of tissue called a growth or tumor. )
( Cancer is defined as the uncontrolled or unregulated growth of cells. )
> Be it standard treatment or alternative tretament, the most important and immediate action should take is to improve and rebuild immune system.
Cancer patient can not afford to have more sickness during treatment, so, we have to stay as healthy as possible.
> Do away all fear and worry and set a positive mind-set to face the treatment
> Have proper and healthy diet
> Listen to our body and rest when we are tire
> Exercise to keep our body healthy ( simple brisk walking is good and do not need to force ourself with excessive exercise )
> Have faith with our Lord and pray for wisdom and healing.
Meantime, we should accept the fact that be it standard treatment or alternative treatment, non of the treatment is suitable for all,
as each patient react differently to the drug ; herb or cancer diet, because of our body system condition ; our race and background ; weather ; living and working environment .
Therefore, the correct way to deal with it is to listen carefully to our body and discuss with doctor and choose something that suit us .
God Bless
SK
Most of us will start doing our reseach thro' reading and net browsing when diagnose
with cancer .
I start with the following site recommended by oncologist :-
http://www.cancer.gov/
http://www.cancer.net/
It give me a very good overview about cancer with general information like ;-
What is cancer ; Treatment ; Coping with cancer ; Prevention, Genetics, Causes ;
Screening and testing.
It also give me overview of all type of common cancer , for Lung cancer, the site
provide very details informations as follows :-
The Lungs - an overview of lungs ; Cancer cells - How's cancer begins in cells ;
Risk factors ; Screening ; Symptoms ; Diagnosis ; Staging ; Treatment ; Second opinion ;
Comfort care ; Nutrition and so on .
Thereafter, I start browsing to look for sites in Malaysia and I manage to find the following
> National Cancer Society of Malaysia ( http://www.cancer.org.my/ )
> Cancerlink Foundation ( http://www.cancerlinkfoundation.org/ )
> Makna <> ( http://www.makna.org.my/ )
> Malaysian Oncological Society ( http://www.malaysiaoncology.org/ )
And other sites that I used to get update informations as follows :-
> Nasional Cancer Centre Singapore ( http://www.nccs.com.sg/ )
> American Cancer Society USA ( http://cencer.org/ )
As for information of Chemo drug and the side effect , I log in to :-
http://www.2ndcanceropinionusa.com/drugdb.htm
Those are all the official site for cancer treatment or cancer care and it give us good information
about standard treatment or approved treatment by government and also all the approved or recommended
complimentary treatment .
After I start with Chemo Therapy and have so much of time at home resting and to cope with side effect,
I start do more reseach by reading books ; articles ; web sites , about story of cancer survivor ; about alternative treatment ;
about why we should not accept the standard treatment like surgery , radiation therapy, chemo therapy ; about there is no
cure for cancer, all treatment is just to prolong life for couple of months or the target of 5 years ; about changing our diet and
mindset to improve our immune system to regain our health and we will be fully recover ; about how to live with cancer in a peaceful
way and so on ...
Be frank, as a layman in medical field, I am getting confuse and wondering what is the right decision .
How to overcome it ?
When I am confuse, I pray to Lord and ask for wisdom ; knowledge and to guide me for the right tretament decision.
With wisdom from Lord and his guide, I find Cancer Compass ( http://www.cancercompass.com/ ) , it give me a better view
after reading all the posting from patient and care taker in cancer compass community and the sharing ; support from the community
is a great assistance to me and clear most of my doubts .
My opinion to share after reading all the informations about cancer treatment as follows :-
> Tell our self that Cancer is not a disease, it is our cell and it can be repaired if we give ourself a chance to do so.
> Tell ourself that cancer is not the end of our life, it is an alarm to inform us there is abnormal cell in our body system
( Cancer begins in cells, the building blocks that make up tissues. Tissues make up the organs of the body.
Normal, healthy cells grow and divide to form new cells as the body needs them.
When normal cells grow old or become damaged, they die, and new cells take their place.
Sometimes, this orderly process goes wrong. New cells form when the body does not need them,
and old or damaged cells do not die as they should. The build-up of extra cells often forms a mass of tissue called a growth or tumor. )
( Cancer is defined as the uncontrolled or unregulated growth of cells. )
> Be it standard treatment or alternative tretament, the most important and immediate action should take is to improve and rebuild immune system.
Cancer patient can not afford to have more sickness during treatment, so, we have to stay as healthy as possible.
> Do away all fear and worry and set a positive mind-set to face the treatment
> Have proper and healthy diet
> Listen to our body and rest when we are tire
> Exercise to keep our body healthy ( simple brisk walking is good and do not need to force ourself with excessive exercise )
> Have faith with our Lord and pray for wisdom and healing.
Meantime, we should accept the fact that be it standard treatment or alternative treatment, non of the treatment is suitable for all,
as each patient react differently to the drug ; herb or cancer diet, because of our body system condition ; our race and background ; weather ; living and working environment .
Therefore, the correct way to deal with it is to listen carefully to our body and discuss with doctor and choose something that suit us .
God Bless
SK
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Why back to old lifestyle after all the suffering ...
Have came across patient having recurrent cancer just couple of months of confirmation by doctor that they have fully recover with full remission ( after chemo and radiation therapy ) and the reason of recurrence is due to they are back to their old lifestyle immediately .
( Note : Not all the recurrence was due to patient back to old lifestyle, my share of opinion is about some of the recurrence patient )
Poor Diet, Lack of Physical Activity, or Being Overweight
People who have a poor diet, do not have enough physical activity, or are overweight may be at increased risk of several types of cancer. For example, studies suggest that people whose diet is high in fat have an increased risk of cancers of the colon, uterus, and prostate. Lack of physical activity and being overweight are risk factors for cancers of the breast, colon, esophagus, kidney, and uterus.
Many will back to their pre-treatment lifestyle , back to the food they like , back to full working life with all the stress .
Work ... stress
It is difficult for many to avoid back to work immediate and also many have to continue working while they are on treatment.
So, stress is unavoidable , what we can do is to reduce or minimise it. Pray and ask for wisdom and knowledge to assist us in our work , to reduce our stress .
Food , exercise , smoking , drinking .....
Many will say that once back to work, it is difficult to control on kind of food or diet and always tempted with all the good taste but bad for health.
And some will say " Life is short , let's enjoy food that I like "
And many will give excuse for no time to continue daily exercise.
For those who say " Life is short , let's enjoy .... " will be tempted to take up old habits again, i.e. smoking , alcohol .
Beside of stress from work, all the excuses given for foods, exercise, smoking , drinking are all unacceptable .
And I just wonder why ?
> Why we have forgotten the pain, worry, fear during treatment
> Why we have forgotten the pain, worry, fear we brought to our spouse, children, parent
> Why we have forgotten all the promises we make during the treatment that we will make a change if we been given a chance to recover
And WHY we are so forgetful , we are so irresponsible to ourself , to our spouse, to our children, to our ...
It is sad , but it is happening everyday .
It also alarm us that many of us will forget our Lord after our recovery, after we are out from trouble water.
Lord , please guide us to learn from our past that have caused us into trouble and thanks to bring us out from the darkness to light . Please also lead us not into temptation .
Thank you Lord in Jesus name, Amen.
God Bless.
( Note : Not all the recurrence was due to patient back to old lifestyle, my share of opinion is about some of the recurrence patient )
Poor Diet, Lack of Physical Activity, or Being Overweight
People who have a poor diet, do not have enough physical activity, or are overweight may be at increased risk of several types of cancer. For example, studies suggest that people whose diet is high in fat have an increased risk of cancers of the colon, uterus, and prostate. Lack of physical activity and being overweight are risk factors for cancers of the breast, colon, esophagus, kidney, and uterus.
Many will back to their pre-treatment lifestyle , back to the food they like , back to full working life with all the stress .
Work ... stress
It is difficult for many to avoid back to work immediate and also many have to continue working while they are on treatment.
So, stress is unavoidable , what we can do is to reduce or minimise it. Pray and ask for wisdom and knowledge to assist us in our work , to reduce our stress .
Food , exercise , smoking , drinking .....
Many will say that once back to work, it is difficult to control on kind of food or diet and always tempted with all the good taste but bad for health.
And some will say " Life is short , let's enjoy food that I like "
And many will give excuse for no time to continue daily exercise.
For those who say " Life is short , let's enjoy .... " will be tempted to take up old habits again, i.e. smoking , alcohol .
Beside of stress from work, all the excuses given for foods, exercise, smoking , drinking are all unacceptable .
And I just wonder why ?
> Why we have forgotten the pain, worry, fear during treatment
> Why we have forgotten the pain, worry, fear we brought to our spouse, children, parent
> Why we have forgotten all the promises we make during the treatment that we will make a change if we been given a chance to recover
And WHY we are so forgetful , we are so irresponsible to ourself , to our spouse, to our children, to our ...
It is sad , but it is happening everyday .
It also alarm us that many of us will forget our Lord after our recovery, after we are out from trouble water.
Lord , please guide us to learn from our past that have caused us into trouble and thanks to bring us out from the darkness to light . Please also lead us not into temptation .
Thank you Lord in Jesus name, Amen.
God Bless.
Amazing ..
It's so amazing that result of my CEA ( tumor marker ) reading reduce for nearly 200 points after taking a rest from Chemo treatment since last treatment in mid Oct '09.
After the visit to Singapore, it take me days to think should I proceed for treatment immediate or I should stick by my plan ( 6 months treatment leave with close monitoring ) .
But, with the last blood test in early Jan '10 reported the raise of CEA reading and comment from doctors that it may be one of the indication of increase in cancer cell activitiy, it's really a concern for me to make a good decision whether to take the CT scan ; MRI and proceed treatment.
Thanks Lord for His mercy , love and give me peace, so that, I manage to avoid making emotional decision. I pray and ask for Him to show me the way through the CEA reading and on 28th Jan '10 morning, I receive the message that it is the time to take the test and I told my wife, let's go for the blood test today ( She been asking me many times whether I've decided when to go for the test and what is my decision for treatment ) and the CEA result will be my guide for treatment decision .
It is also amazing that it's the first blood test that I feel so relax, easy, without fear or worry of " What if ..... "
After waiting for two hours for the blood test report to release by lab, when I read it, I just feel great, the kind of feeling is wonderful and I know that Lord is with me .
Praise the Lord for His healing for me and may Lord will continue to touch me with His healing power and let it flow through my body and restore me to full health .
Lord , please also touch everyone in my prayer , everyone in cancer compass community and everyone who ask for your healing and let all of us receive your mercy , grace , peace , love and be healed and restore to full health.
Thank you Lord in Jesus name , Amen.
God Bless.
After the visit to Singapore, it take me days to think should I proceed for treatment immediate or I should stick by my plan ( 6 months treatment leave with close monitoring ) .
But, with the last blood test in early Jan '10 reported the raise of CEA reading and comment from doctors that it may be one of the indication of increase in cancer cell activitiy, it's really a concern for me to make a good decision whether to take the CT scan ; MRI and proceed treatment.
Thanks Lord for His mercy , love and give me peace, so that, I manage to avoid making emotional decision. I pray and ask for Him to show me the way through the CEA reading and on 28th Jan '10 morning, I receive the message that it is the time to take the test and I told my wife, let's go for the blood test today ( She been asking me many times whether I've decided when to go for the test and what is my decision for treatment ) and the CEA result will be my guide for treatment decision .
It is also amazing that it's the first blood test that I feel so relax, easy, without fear or worry of " What if ..... "
After waiting for two hours for the blood test report to release by lab, when I read it, I just feel great, the kind of feeling is wonderful and I know that Lord is with me .
Praise the Lord for His healing for me and may Lord will continue to touch me with His healing power and let it flow through my body and restore me to full health .
Lord , please also touch everyone in my prayer , everyone in cancer compass community and everyone who ask for your healing and let all of us receive your mercy , grace , peace , love and be healed and restore to full health.
Thank you Lord in Jesus name , Amen.
God Bless.
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