FREE ..... cancer free !

I wake up at 5 am this morning, good sleep ... :) , great ! sweet sleep for 6 hours .

Finish this drawing ... " FREE ... cancer free "

To all cancer warrior , we will win the war and FREE from cancer .

Lord will lead us , walk with us , bring us out from darkness to light .

Praise the Lord .

Thank you Lord .

LIVE everyday with LOVE and stay happy and Lord will guide us thro' everyday

The first posting in my blog dated December 2nd 2009 start with the heading " Living with Lung Cancer ...... What is ahead of us ? ,
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So, what is ahead of us ...." Living with Lung Cancer " .... ?
Be frank , I am not so sure and I am seaching for the answer .
One of the answer I hv is to share our experience in LIFE
( be it our experience in living with cancer ; our experience in our career or profession ;
our experience in how to hv a happy family life ; our experience in walking with Lord ....... ) with others.
When I was diagnosed with cancer, I told myself , it is God's will for me to go thro' it and to share what I'm going to experience ,
with people who need the information
But, whatever is the answer ..... what is most important is to LIVE everyday with LOVE and stay happy , and Lord will guide us thro' everyday .
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Something bother me for the last few days. I am start asking myself the question .

What is ahead of me ?
What actually I looking forward everyday ?

I am not sure is others who is living with cancer will have the same thought or question from time to time .

Sometime, I ask myself a very direct question ,
" Am I still living because I want to show that I can fight it off ? "
It is depressing when this thought come in and this thought will grow strong, especially when I receive news about end of the journey of inspiring cancer survivor .

It is not easy to deal with it, especially when I am on treatment, when I am trying hard to focus in managing the side effect and get myself recover
from it , then , this thought keep coming .

I am glad that Lord is with me , bless me with wisdom and show me the way , walk me out from darkness to light .

This morning, the same thought come to me again, I decided to continue my reading of book of Romans and Lord guide me to go back to my first blog posting ,,,
what is most important is to LIVE everyday with LOVE and stay happy , and Lord will guide us thro' everyday .

Thank you Lord Jesus , I am thankful for your daily guidance .

Praise the Lord !

Amen.

".... , ..we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
perseverance, character; and charater, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God
has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. "
ROMANS 5 : 3-5 (NIV)

Longer life or healthy life?

Good morning !
Praise the Lord !
Lord's healing and blessing is great .
I am dealing with very very very minimum side effect in comparing with the last two cycles for 5th and
6th day .
Feel so great !
Wake up at 5 am , it is a good sleep and rest.
Pray for healing continue and side effect to go away soonest.

Read the medical book about how to strengthen our self immune system to keep us stay healthy and
one chapter is talking about longer life against healthty life.

Isn't this the subject that we always ask ? But, how often are we seriouslly look into it ?
Our normal response is , Yes ! Healthy life is more important .
It's very true that what is the point to live a longer life when we are bed ridden , sick and no quality
of life.
But, are we taking any action ?
Are we start to make a change to our lifestyle ?
Or are we continue to live with it and continue rely on doctor to give us fast-fix drug to keep us moving.

We all know what is the right action .
Wake up and start the first step , if you have not .
God bless you will make it and you will live healthy .

HAPPY life >>>> Healthy life ........... :) ........... Have a good day !

5th day of 3rd cycle chemotherapy with drug Taxotere

Problem with sleep is back.
Yesterday night, decided to change my way of resting. Just jump on bed as when feel tire. So, end up in bed before 9pm and wake up abt 1+ am. Not bad, feel fresh then.
Decided to watch movie and end up back to bed at 4 am. not really sleep, but, did have a good nap and wake up 7+ am, to get myself prepare for early visit to hospital for my 3rd ( last ) white blood cell booster injection for this chemo cycle.
All goes well and back home by 1 pm , jump on bed again to rest. good nap for until 4 pm and have my early dinner before 6 pm, very good and happy that the hard strike side effect not yet start ... :) . hope it'll not strike me too hard this time . ( Note : Steroid drug finish yesterday, so, the hard side effect should start by today, as per experience of 1st and 2nd cycle ) .

Sharing on how I deal with my chemo treatment everyday :-
> Prayer and thanks Lord for Healing and Blessing
> Pray for Lord blessing to my family , relatives, friends to have Joy , Happiness and Good Health . Thanks so much for all their Love , Care and Support .
> Rest/Sleep as when I feel tire
> Eat as when I feel hungry
> Do something to extract my focus from pain, body ache, i.e. listen to music , read jokes, watch movie , drawing , or anything that can get me relax .
> Light exercise and brisk walking for atleast 1/2 hour , as long as my body condition allow .
> Drink sufficient amount of water/fluid to ensure I am not dehydrated, meantime, monitor closely to ensure there is no sign of water retention.
> Take record of my daily weight and blood pressure reading for a good monitoring of my body condition changes.
> Take medicine on time as per doctor advice to ensure side effect under control .
> Listen to my body and take note and record any body changes. It is important information for next doctor appointment.
> Share and update my conditions to my wife, so that she know how I am doing and this will keep her away from worry .

Be happy and appreciate each day we have with our family ... :)

God Bless !

What give us hope is having a plan

No complain of sleep yesterday night, 10 pm to 4 am, 6 hours , not bad. Catch with short nap this afternoon, feel okay.

Back to hospital today for the booster injection, this time feel some slight pain at my back , not serious, should be ok .

Best news is that this morning problem with constipation solve , feel so great !

Read some Blog this morning and I like one of the comment " What give us hope is having a plan ".

It is so true that without a plan on how to plan for the treatment , how to get ready wih plan B , plan C and ... , how to
live happily , means we are living wihout hope and soon we will feel depress , give up when things happen during treatment.

After 3 years , I learn alot from the sharing from cancer forum , cancer blog , books and articles about cancer and all the inspiring story from
cancer survival / patient.

And I want to thanks God for his mercy and grace , thanks the support and love from my wife, daughter, my family , relative, friends .

I love you all ! Thanks .

All goes well as normal with good management of the side effect

Doctor meet up with me this morning for a brief consultation, everything looks fine and just check for the lung airway , according to him, it works well .
Finally, insurance companty approved payment and discharge about 12 noon.
As normal, feel great to be home for a good shower, lunch and have a good nap for few hours.
Yesterday night very tire , but, can not sleep and finally rest at about 2 to 3 am and wake up by 6+ am . So tire this morning. lucky can have a good nap this afternoon.
Constipation still my main problem, I should take medication yesterday to prevent constipation, anyway, have it two times today and hope problem solve latest by tomorrow morning .
Normal side effect, stomach very gassy , hiccup , tire , metalic taste start since yesterday and not serious .
What I sum up is that good management of the side effect for chemotherapy all depends on how much we understand about the drug and how the side effect affect us for the 1st cycle , then, make a good study and manage it with medication and so on.
Wish all well for this cycle of treatment and I can recover faster than last cycle , as I plan to have the 4th cycle on schedule , 3 week from now , instead of the 4 weeks like last two cycles.

3rd cycle Chemotherapy with Taxotere

It's Oct 2011 , 8 weeks since I start chemotherapy with Taxotere.
After 2 cycles, things look good, last week is the best week since start with Taxotere. This time do not encounter with low blood pressure on 4th week, feel great and manage to move around with driving to Klang for submitting my application for EPF and Socso , to KL for insurance matter and also attending gathering with friends .
Well, time to get back to treatment after a week of quality life with stable condition ... STABLE is good , Lord is great !
This morning chemotherapy procedure start about 11 am with the anti allergy medicine and Taxotere start at 12 noon and finished by 1 pm .
As usual, I will stay a night for observation, if all well, will dischage and go home tomorrow.
For until now, all well , just wish to have a good night rest and hopefully no constipation by tomorrow.
Did find that stomach not feeling good today, compare with the last two cycle, it happen only 2nd or 3rd day.
The other thing I notice is that since the 2nd cycle, I cough out minimum phlegm and no blood stain or fresh blood show up in phlegm, but, today, after the I.V. Of Taxotere, some fresh blood show up in phlegm . Will monitor closely and see what happen the next two days.
Thanks for all your prayer .
May Lord bless all of us have a joyful day .
God less .
/SK